Emotional morning

We were just in time for check-in when we reached KLIA at 5:30AM. We just had a little food in McDonalds and I was quite thankful that my Aunty Susan was with us. She's very funny like my mom that I even forgot that we were already at the airport. We had some breakfast in McDonalds before I said goodbye to her and Selena. I was taking it easy and putting it all out of my mind.

As they were walking to the immigration gates, I felt pinching in my heart. It got worse when Selena turned and waved goodbye to us. So I just took the camera and just took her pictures while they were in the queue. When they finally got in and waved goodbye before they were gone, I suddenly felt like crying. But I composed myself and just walked fast to the waiting car. JP sent his driver to drive us to and from the airport.

I slept in the car when we were on the way back to the hotel. But when I went into the hotel, I felt like bursting into tears. I got so used to walking into the hotel with her, letting her press the buttons on the lift. Especially when we got to our floor, I remembered how she would jump on only brown boxes on the carpet till we reach our room. The worst was when I opened the room and found some of her things scattered around. I had to lock myself in the toilet. I'm not used to being seen crying, even by Marl. But back to reality, I had to convince myself that this is life and we'll just have to deal with it.

Life sucks sometimes, doesn't it?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Selena is one lucky girl to have a very loving, sweet and beautiful mom like you.